I Still Miss You

Hi, I know it’s been awhile since I’ve written. So many things have happened, and if I am to be honest I have been hesitant to share them with you. You see I find myself still so angry with you. It is those feelings of anger that enhance my feelings guilt and then I find […]

Regret

Regret is powerful. It never lets you forget It never lets you forgive Regret is your ghosts of yesterday, wrapped up in your thoughts of today. It motivates, distracts and destroys It sticks to your insides, nests in your soul Reeking havoc on all the good you have, replacing it with rot and hate Regret […]

Daylight

Trapped in the fury of my mind Seeking answers to the unanswerable Engulfed in an unquenchable thirst for truth Sifting through the ashes of yesterday Locked up in today Wading without rest in memories locked away Waiting for daylight to break

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. . I only think of you when I’m breathing Haunted by guilt- drowning in what ifs Chasing down yesterday that will never be today’s I only think of you when I’m breathing

Crushing Guilt

Have you ever felt guilt? I’m not talking about the guilt associated with an extra sweet, one too many drinks or even with a choice you wish you could take back. I am talking about soul crushing, mind numbing guilt. This is the guilt that cripples you, paralyzes you. Leaving you so broken that you […]

Reunited

You visited me in my dreams again To remind me where I’ve been A familiar smile A comforting ol’ friend Firm loving discipline Guiding me back to center Where I need to be Even after you’re gone I’m still counting on you to keep me in the light A responsibility far too important for just […]

Drink with a Friend

I could use a blueberry coffee today A visit with my friend A laugh until I cry moment An escape from the worry, the sadness the regret I could a blueberry coffee today . . . I could an extra hot Caramel Macchiato today A relax on my couch Sarcastic antidotes, a walk down memory […]

My friend

Since your passing I see you everywhere My friend, my confidant I miss the late night calls The coffee dates A void was left No drink nor drug can fill Everything off balance There is a loud silence I can’t drown out I miss you Since your passing I look for you in moments My […]