Let’s Talk

Depression, anxiety, turmoil looks different on everyone. Everyone’s grass looks greener when you think you only have dirt. Many think it’s easier to have these depressed people fit into pre-cut boxes instead of dealing with a case by case basis. I have spoken of my static and depression briefly before. It is something that I […]

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Dishes

A friend of mine posted about anxiety this week on social media. She was reflecting when she was doing dishes. Her words gave me pause. As someone who has experienced overwhelming anxiety in my life I thought, how do I cope with or handle my anxieties and are they actually anxieties or simple worries I […]

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Happy?

When the mask cracks And the facade crumbles When you are left naked for all to see Will you be happy? The last bow taken Thank you given When you’re standing alone on the edge Finally freed from your cage Will you be free? When you no longer care about the world’s worry When every […]

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Nightmare

I have this dream, a nightmare really and I have had it the better part of 20 years. It always starts the same and ends exactly the same way it’s what happens in the middle that dependent on what’s happening in my life that changes. It’s dark and violent. Bloody and Horrific. No matter how […]

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Forbidden Love

Forbidden Love Longest relationship I ever had was never really a relationship at all. It had characteristics or the makings of one but never materialized into anything. I look back on it now and wonder when given the choice if I would have chosen different and how would life be different. We talked about it […]

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At Dusk

As darkness settles, the clouds roll in Seemingly touching the ground There is a calm stillness, a hush over city As if we know the end is nearing We are watching in wait for judgment Something is different this time, Something not quite right, As if damnation is further off then we thought Some kneel […]

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Addict

Choke it down To recieve one more Sit in the room Stare at the door Hate myself Love you less Can’t stand the pressure Yet live for the stress Doors close Lights fade Pray for our demise Until then keep up the charade

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My demons

My demons drown so I choke them with vodka My demons breathe so I smother them with food My demons live so I extinguish them with narcotics My demons are resilient so I’m in for a battle My demons are stealthy so I hide in the shadows. My demons are loud so I suffer in […]

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12.

Silence the demons By snuffing out their hatred Rejoice in your glory Victory to your soul

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Need me

In the dead of night, when the silence is deafening and you feel like all hope is gone. That’s when you will need me the most. When the pain becomes to much to bare and the walls start caving in. That’s when you need me the most. When happiness is but a memory long faded […]

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