The Pulse of Misery

I have thought about this post for a while. I haven’t posted in sometime. I went from everyday day to every couple to weeks of silence. It isn’t that I enjoy writing any less or have anything less to say. It is more complicated then that. In this moment I have so many thoughts swimming […]

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Clutter of my mind

. . . Inside clutter of my mind You’ll get lost in all the noise Tripped up in the nightmares Overwhelmed by the madness Inside the clutter of my mind . . Inside the clutter of my mind Deep amongst the shadows of wasted opportunity Down the river of regret You’ll see the idea of […]

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Pretend

. . . My mind is a haze I can’t even keep up to my thoughts I exist in this shell of who I once was Who I would give anything to be again I search for remnants of her Clues of where she might have went It’s dark in her wake Destruction and oblivion […]

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30.

The hands tick slowly away Signaling the passage of existence Hopefully leading way to something greater If not just quiet.

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Weigh in

Weight is tricky. It literally does what it says it does. It weighs on you. Weighs on your bones, your mind, your life, your soul. The weight that is hardest to loose is the weight you can’t see. It is the plague that weighs you down. Dictating who you’ll be. It thinks it owns you. […]

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Mask

. . . I’m tired of the mask The fake smiles, little laughs Dawning a life far fetched from my own Covering a secret, battered skin, fragile bone Wounds from my battle, long since past Take a slow breath, pray its the last Want to be break free, let go, move on Let the disease […]

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Crushing Guilt

Have you ever felt guilt? I’m not talking about the guilt associated with an extra sweet, one too many drinks or even with a choice you wish you could take back. I am talking about soul crushing, mind numbing guilt. This is the guilt that cripples you, paralyzes you. Leaving you so broken that you […]

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