Tragedy

Does anyone else imagine horrific events happening to them as they are doing something. Imagine their car going over a guardrail as they are on the exit ramp connecting to another road. See their plane blow an engine, or something happen while in the air and they have to emergency land or they just crash. […]

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Happy Place

. . I feel it moving in Darkness just around the bend Its growing colder The familiar silence The calming stillness It engulfs me The pressure pulls me in Hugging me, pulling me down I continue to fall My reality starts slipping away My memories further still Darker Quieter Its peaceful here Not even the […]

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More than just a check

“You’re not going to broken forever” That’s what I have told myself for years. Every bit of progress made, pushed back by yet another speed bump. It is tricky, an art, to balance the crazy with the normal. A dance between somber and elated. It is a roller coaster of emotion sometimes all felt in […]

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Let’s Talk

Depression, anxiety, turmoil looks different on everyone. Everyone’s grass looks greener when you think you only have dirt. Many think it’s easier to have these depressed people fit into pre-cut boxes instead of dealing with a case by case basis. I have spoken of my static and depression briefly before. It is something that I […]

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Dishes

A friend of mine posted about anxiety this week on social media. She was reflecting when she was doing dishes. Her words gave me pause. As someone who has experienced overwhelming anxiety in my life I thought, how do I cope with or handle my anxieties and are they actually anxieties or simple worries I […]

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Happy?

When the mask cracks And the facade crumbles When you are left naked for all to see Will you be happy? The last bow taken Thank you given When you’re standing alone on the edge Finally freed from your cage Will you be free? When you no longer care about the world’s worry When every […]

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Nightmare

I have this dream, a nightmare really and I have had it the better part of 20 years. It always starts the same and ends exactly the same way it’s what happens in the middle that dependent on what’s happening in my life that changes. It’s dark and violent. Bloody and Horrific. No matter how […]

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Forbidden Love

Forbidden Love Longest relationship I ever had was never really a relationship at all. It had characteristics or the makings of one but never materialized into anything. I look back on it now and wonder when given the choice if I would have chosen different and how would life be different. We talked about it […]

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At Dusk

As darkness settles, the clouds roll in Seemingly touching the ground There is a calm stillness, a hush over city As if we know the end is nearing We are watching in wait for judgment Something is different this time, Something not quite right, As if damnation is further off then we thought Some kneel […]

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Addict

Choke it down To recieve one more Sit in the room Stare at the door Hate myself Love you less Can’t stand the pressure Yet live for the stress Doors close Lights fade Pray for our demise Until then keep up the charade

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