Happy?

The pressure to be happy is exhausting Society telling us it’s wrong to feel Sad Angry Anxious Mediocre We are supposed to be on all the time. Ready to laugh, smile, always be upbeat; positive. They (whoever they are) create this mounting pressure to be at 100% every moment of every day. Its exhausting. However […]

More than just a check

“You’re not going to broken forever” That’s what I have told myself for years. Every bit of progress made, pushed back by yet another speed bump. It is tricky, an art, to balance the crazy with the normal. A dance between somber and elated. It is a roller coaster of emotion sometimes all felt in […]

Dear….

My dearest girl; I know you are busy wrapped up in your life. Things aren’t easy now. Trust me I have been there. Nothing I can say will ease this pain and make the journey you are on now any easier. However you need to know. I am sorry. I am not sorry that this […]

Writing

When I started this blog, I wanted to express my thoughts, opinions, poetry and anything else I saw fit to write about. I came at this somewhat therapeutically, mixed with creativity and always honest. I have been writing for the better part of 20 years, poetry, short stories, I have even attempted a novel or […]

Let’s Talk

Depression, anxiety, turmoil looks different on everyone. Everyone’s grass looks greener when you think you only have dirt. Many think it’s easier to have these depressed people fit into pre-cut boxes instead of dealing with a case by case basis. I have spoken of my static and depression briefly before. It is something that I […]

Dishes

A friend of mine posted about anxiety this week on social media. She was reflecting when she was doing dishes. Her words gave me pause. As someone who has experienced overwhelming anxiety in my life I thought, how do I cope with or handle my anxieties and are they actually anxieties or simple worries I […]

Nightmare

I have this dream, a nightmare really and I have had it the better part of 20 years. It always starts the same and ends exactly the same way it’s what happens in the middle that dependent on what’s happening in my life that changes. It’s dark and violent. Bloody and Horrific. No matter how […]

Forbidden Love

Forbidden Love Longest relationship I ever had was never really a relationship at all. It had characteristics or the makings of one but never materialized into anything. I look back on it now and wonder when given the choice if I would have chosen different and how would life be different. We talked about it […]

The Year that Was

The holidays. A time when so many indulge and look back. It is the midst of the hustle and bustle, I find myself wondering how many of us take the time and reflect. Over the last couple days I have thought about 2018. Not just through the lense of my life but I’ve thought of […]

Remarkable Grace

I have a friend who has this quiet courage. She’s not boastful or conceded, she doesn’t pretend to have answers to her questions or act like she has it together. She’s real, raw, vulnerable and is learning to navigate through her life. She stumbles and loses her way, finds herself and pushes through. My friend […]