Nightmare

I have this dream, a nightmare really and I have had it the better part of 20 years. It always starts the same and ends exactly the same way it’s what happens in the middle that dependent on what’s happening in my life that changes. It’s dark and violent. Bloody and Horrific. No matter how […]

Forbidden Love

Forbidden Love Longest relationship I ever had was never really a relationship at all. It had characteristics or the makings of one but never materialized into anything. I look back on it now and wonder when given the choice if I would have chosen different and how would life be different. We talked about it […]

The Year that Was

The holidays. A time when so many indulge and look back. It is the midst of the hustle and bustle, I find myself wondering how many of us take the time and reflect. Over the last couple days I have thought about 2018. Not just through the lense of my life but I’ve thought of […]

Remarkable Grace

I have a friend who has this quiet courage. She’s not boastful or conceded, she doesn’t pretend to have answers to her questions or act like she has it together. She’s real, raw, vulnerable and is learning to navigate through her life. She stumbles and loses her way, finds herself and pushes through. My friend […]

Well timed text

Have you ever needed to hear something A pick me up from someone that wasn’t a regular motivator in your life. Like from those who see you in a way you don’t see yourself, but want too. Words of encouragement or a belief in your character that stretches beyond your idea of yourself. To know […]

Need me

In the dead of night, when the silence is deafening and you feel like all hope is gone. That’s when you will need me the most. When the pain becomes to much to bare and the walls start caving in. That’s when you need me the most. When happiness is but a memory long faded […]

Funny

Sadness is funny. Sometimes you don’t even know you’re sad, until you smile and it hurts. It is at that moment when you realize you could very well be the saddest person on earth. You’re convinced that there has never in the history of sadness been someone that has felt it as deeply than you […]

Here

Can they see through me? See me for the fraud I am. The liar I have become. These feelings I have resurface from time to time. The static and darkness creeps in trying to snuff of my light. It’s not a call for people to give words of encouragement. Or fill me with compliments ensuring […]

Thankful

Being Thanksgiving today I find myself thankful for so many things. In today’s hostile environment with tense relations it’s more important than ever before. I am of course thankful for my family. I have fantastic parents that have never held me back and always allowed me to be who I am with no judgements. A […]

Dark Corner Memories

You live in the darkest part of me its cold there, a place that is rarely visited and often forgotten. However in that corner it’s where you reside. On the rare occasion when you make an appearance in my memories you are met with disgust and resistance. I once welcomed you, felt comforted by your […]