Crushing Guilt

Have you ever felt guilt? I’m not talking about the guilt associated with an extra sweet, one too many drinks or even with a choice you wish you could take back. I am talking about soul crushing, mind numbing guilt. This is the guilt that cripples you, paralyzes you. Leaving you so broken that you […]

Exhausted

Do you ever feel yourself slipping into the abyss. Drowning amongst your responsibilities? Do you ever feel all alone while standing in a crowd. Like you’re being weighed down by a neverending to-do list? Do you remember a time when being an adult is all you wanted, you counted down the seconds until you could […]

Government

. . I have grown exhausted by our endless circle of frustration. You’re always right. I’m never wrong. Around we go. It is like we are stuck in a time loop, or on continuous repeat. Destined to make the same mistakes, slated for a certain fate. We boast about being equal, that we are better […]

A Year Today

I can not believe it’s been a year. June 7th I finally took the plunge. I started Sacred Venus. I had grand ideas and passion for miles. This past year, I opened doors in my mind I never thought I would share let alone put out on the internet for all to see. My words […]

Brave

What is bravery? Is it running towards danger, defending the masses. Is it allowing yourself to be vulnerable, being humble and helpful. Its is loud action or quiet movement. Are brave people always brave or only when needed. Is it inherited or a learned skill. Is bravery only for the strong, or does it display […]

Tragedy

Does anyone else imagine horrific events happening to them as they are doing something. Imagine their car going over a guardrail as they are on the exit ramp connecting to another road. See their plane blow an engine, or something happen while in the air and they have to emergency land or they just crash. […]

Happy Birthday

Today is my best friends birthday. She would have been 32 today. It is not something I talk about much, let alone write. However as we near 3 years of her passing I am reminded everyday of her in small ways, large ways both quiet and loud. Robyn saw herself as invincible and it is […]

Happy?

The pressure to be happy is exhausting Society telling us it’s wrong to feel Sad Angry Anxious Mediocre We are supposed to be on all the time. Ready to laugh, smile, always be upbeat; positive. They (whoever they are) create this mounting pressure to be at 100% every moment of every day. Its exhausting. However […]

More than just a check

“You’re not going to broken forever” That’s what I have told myself for years. Every bit of progress made, pushed back by yet another speed bump. It is tricky, an art, to balance the crazy with the normal. A dance between somber and elated. It is a roller coaster of emotion sometimes all felt in […]

Dear….

My dearest girl; I know you are busy wrapped up in your life. Things aren’t easy now. Trust me I have been there. Nothing I can say will ease this pain and make the journey you are on now any easier. However you need to know. I am sorry. I am not sorry that this […]