Tragedy

Does anyone else imagine horrific events happening to them as they are doing something. Imagine their car going over a guardrail as they are on the exit ramp connecting to another road. See their plane blow an engine, or something happen while in the air and they have to emergency land or they just crash. […]

Happy Birthday

Today is my best friends birthday. She would have been 32 today. It is not something I talk about much, let alone write. However as we near 3 years of her passing I am reminded everyday of her in small ways, large ways both quiet and loud. Robyn saw herself as invincible and it is […]

Happy?

The pressure to be happy is exhausting Society telling us it’s wrong to feel Sad Angry Anxious Mediocre We are supposed to be on all the time. Ready to laugh, smile, always be upbeat; positive. They (whoever they are) create this mounting pressure to be at 100% every moment of every day. Its exhausting. However […]

More than just a check

“You’re not going to broken forever” That’s what I have told myself for years. Every bit of progress made, pushed back by yet another speed bump. It is tricky, an art, to balance the crazy with the normal. A dance between somber and elated. It is a roller coaster of emotion sometimes all felt in […]

Dear….

My dearest girl; I know you are busy wrapped up in your life. Things aren’t easy now. Trust me I have been there. Nothing I can say will ease this pain and make the journey you are on now any easier. However you need to know. I am sorry. I am not sorry that this […]

Writing

When I started this blog, I wanted to express my thoughts, opinions, poetry and anything else I saw fit to write about. I came at this somewhat therapeutically, mixed with creativity and always honest. I have been writing for the better part of 20 years, poetry, short stories, I have even attempted a novel or […]

Let’s Talk

Depression, anxiety, turmoil looks different on everyone. Everyone’s grass looks greener when you think you only have dirt. Many think it’s easier to have these depressed people fit into pre-cut boxes instead of dealing with a case by case basis. I have spoken of my static and depression briefly before. It is something that I […]

Dishes

A friend of mine posted about anxiety this week on social media. She was reflecting when she was doing dishes. Her words gave me pause. As someone who has experienced overwhelming anxiety in my life I thought, how do I cope with or handle my anxieties and are they actually anxieties or simple worries I […]

Nightmare

I have this dream, a nightmare really and I have had it the better part of 20 years. It always starts the same and ends exactly the same way it’s what happens in the middle that dependent on what’s happening in my life that changes. It’s dark and violent. Bloody and Horrific. No matter how […]

Forbidden Love

Forbidden Love Longest relationship I ever had was never really a relationship at all. It had characteristics or the makings of one but never materialized into anything. I look back on it now and wonder when given the choice if I would have chosen different and how would life be different. We talked about it […]